Thursday, July 20, 2017

"Heart Free" - 07/20/17 - Psalm 119:1-88





"I run in the path of Your commands, for You have set my heart free".(32)


I love all His days given to me, but I love storms.  I love rainy days. 

I love the coziness that comes from being on the inside looking out through the windows, knowing I am safe and warm inside.  I love the memories tucked into my heart.  One I treasure most is when the boys were young, after a downpour, along with Jacob and Lucas, we went outside and played in the water running down the street on its way to the river.  We made little boats out of paper and sticks to have races.  We were soaked to the bones from the splashing.  Laughter filled the air. 

I love the refreshment which comes from the warm, gentle summer popup showers, pouring down upon me, hot and sweaty from working outside.  I love dodging through the big fat drops, trying to take cover before the solid sheet of water I see in the horizon meets me face to face. 

I love water. 

An essential physical life source.  As are His commands. 

I love how His Word transforms our heart, as the rains transform a plant drooped over in dryness into one standing firm and tall, refreshed. 
I love how His Word gives us the promises and Truth deep within our heart, as the rains penetrate into this earth. 

I love how His Word tells us we are covered with His Grace and Mercy through the Blood of our Savior, as the rains pouring down. 

I love how His Word has given us a new way of living.  Just as the rains.

Our dearest ABBA,

I love to run in the path of Your commands, as I love running in the depths of the waters, making its journey to the rivers, seas, and oceans after a hard rain.

I love drinking You in, as I taste the coolness of Your pure water raining down upon my upturned face. 

I love You have set my heart free in Your Love, as the rains coming down from the heavens.

I love we are Your Beloved.





Tuesday, July 18, 2017

"How Much He Loves Thee" - 07/19/17 - Psalm 115-118




 "I love The LORD ,
because He hears My voice and my supplications.

"Because He has inclined His ear to me,
Therefore I shall call upon Him as long as I live.

The cords of death encompassed me And the terrors of Sheol came upon me;
I found distress and sorrow.

Then I called upon the name of The LORD : "O LORD , I beseech You, save my life!"

Gracious is The LORD , and righteous;

Yes, our God is compassionate.

The LORD preserves the simple;
I was brought low, and He saved me.

Return to your rest, O my soul, For The LORD has dealt bountifully with you.

For You have rescued my soul from death,
My eyes from tears,
My feet from stumbling.

I shall walk before The LORD In the land of the living."(116:1-9)   










"70 x 7" - 07/18/17 - Psalms 108-114




 "For Your Mercy is great above the heavens.  And Your Truth reaches to the clouds."(108:4)


There are often times when reading the Psalms I breath a sigh of relief.  Many times the curses the psalmist wants to call down on his enemies seem very harsh and unforgiving.  Only because of our Christ, I have never came to this place of wanting any type of vengeance upon those who have hurt me.  Sometimes it is hard to understand how we should take this kind of language in the different Psalms in the face of Christ's teaching about loving our enemies and doing good to those who hurt us. 

However, two important points are clear:  the psalmist left vengeance in The Hand of The Lord, and he also clearly understood the reality of wickedness.  We must remember that forgiveness is not saying, "It wasn't really bad."  True forgiveness does not pretend that sin did not happen; it recognizes evil, and then releases the desire for vengeance into God's hands.  God has promised that He will judge the wicked in the end. 

How I rejoice in knowing we have such an ABBA.  In knowing, no matter our sins.  Or when they have and do occur.  When "in" Christ", all sins are forgiven.  We live life standing on and in His Truth.  His Truth which transforms our heart and gives us such freedom. 

In the end,  it is only because of His Grace we will not be judged as "wicked".  We instantly became covered by The Blood of our Savior from the moment we accepted Him into our heart.  His gifts of Grace, Mercy and Forgiveness begin transforming our heart, causing us to pray for "all" to have an intimacy with Him.  And for some - those prayers are from afar. 

We are instructed no matter the actions of others, we must forgive.  (This doesn't mean "forgetting" and subjecting yourself to the mistreatment.)  Our ABBA knows, it is only through the forgiving of others, we then overcome feelings of anger, bitterness, or revenge. Forgiveness can heal spiritual wounds and bring the peace and love only our God can give.  It enables us to view "all" through the eyes of our Savior. 

"All".  Whom are made in His image. 

To the world, it totally doesn't make sense to be as Christ.  The world will look upon this act as a weakness.  In reality, it takes super God strength to forgive and extend mercy and grace.  To live going against the grain - shining His Light into the darkness.

Just as He has done with the darkness of our hearts in the act of forgiveness. 






 


Monday, July 17, 2017

"His Living Waters" - 07/17/17 - Psalm 106-107






"Then He changed the wasteland into fresh pools of water, and earth into springs of water," (107:35)


I smile as the image of Jed Clampit from the Beverly Hillbillies, discovers "black gold - oil that is", comes into my mind as I read this verse.  How it represents my life, before and after, I gave it to our ABBA.

So many times throughout my life He has protected me, actually saved me from harm.  I shake my head in wonderment knowing, there are many instances I am completely unaware of. 

Quite a few years ago while mowing atop of a steep hill, my mower hit wet grass and started to slide down towards the 8 ft tall wall at the bottom. In my panic, my next reaction was trying to put my foot out in front of the mower to try and stop it - the blades still running. My foot, thankfully, never touched the ground. It was a small 2ft wide bed with blue rug growing in it that our ABBA used to stop it.  I can remember sitting there looking down over the drive offering up a prayer of thank you to Him.  He was the only reason I didn't fly over the wall. 

Looking back at that day, I realized how easily my life could have ended.  I realized the stupid things we end up doing, trying to "save ourselves" when we allow fear to take over.  He also gave me insight to prepare for the "next time" I have to mow in a situation like that.  How to maneuver the terrain in a way that keeps me from the edge. 


Just like my life. 


Up until the point of having Adam 32 years ago, my life was a wasteland.  I was stumbling through life, living for "self", living in fear, living life on the edge.  My "fruits" were all about the world. 


How He transformed my life at the point of Adam.  He took the wasteland and it has become lush from the fresh waters.  He has taken the fruits of our sons and daughter-in-loves, our grandchildren and making them into springs of water.  He is using me and mine to lead others to "living water" so their lives are eternally refreshed. 


He has shown us when in Him, we no longer have to live life in the wasteland full of fear and doubt.  He teaches us when in situations outside our comfort zone not to "put our foot out in front of running blades".  We can stand back and allow our ABBA to be our protector.  We are living in the refreshment of His "living springs".  Drinking in His Promises and great LOVE. 








  

Sunday, July 16, 2017

"Our Christ - The Living Word" - 07/16/17 Psalms 103-105




This past March 07 I was sitting in a darkened room beside a bed.  My grandmother lay in it taking her last steps on this earth. It was during her last hours I found comfort and peace through the reading of The Psalms on my phone. 

We would have celebrated her 96th birthday two days ago.  Time.  Although it passes, there are still constant reminders of those we share life with.  Reminders of what has been.  where we have walked.  Whom we have walked with. 

There are many being lifted up in prayer by His Warriors each and every day.  While on this earth we shall be taking steps through the valley.  over the mountain tops. 

Wherever your steps are, I am praying His Words will bring you what is needed as you are walking through this world towards Heaven.  Our eternal home with Him.  Where there are no more tears.  no more pain.  no more death.

His Word.
His Living Word.

"The Word became flesh and made His dwelling among us.
We have seen His Glory,
The Glory of The One and only Son, who came from The Father, full of Grace and Truth"(John 1:14).

Our Hope.  May it be tucked into your heart and lived through each of your steps. 


"O my soul, bless God.
    From head to toe, I’ll bless His Holy Name!

O my soul, bless God,
    don’t forget a single blessing!
 
He forgives your sins—every one.
    
He heals your diseases—every one.
    
He redeems you from hell—saves your life!
    
He crowns you with love and mercy—a paradise crown.
    
He wraps you in goodness—beauty eternal.
    
He renews your youth—you’re always young in His presence.
 
God makes everything come out right;
    He puts victims back on their feet.


He showed Moses how He went about His work,
    opened up His plans to all Israel.


God is sheer mercy and grace;
    not easily angered, He’s rich in love.


He doesn’t endlessly nag and scold,
    nor hold grudges forever.


He doesn’t treat us as our sins deserve,
    nor pay us back in full for our wrongs.


As high as heaven is over the earth,
    so strong is His Love to those who love Him.
And as far as sunrise is from sunset,
    He has separated us from our sins.

As parents feel for their children,
    God feels for those who love Him.


He knows us inside and out,
    keeps in mind that we’re made of mud.
Men and women don’t live very long;
    like wildflowers they spring up and blossom,
But a storm snuffs them out just as quickly,
    leaving nothing to show they were here.


God’s Love, though, is ever and always,


eternally present to all who love Him,

Making everything right for them and their children
    as they follow His Covenant ways
    and remember to do whatever He said.
 
God has set His Throne in Heaven;
    He rules over us all. He’s The King!


So bless God, you angels,
    ready and able to fly at His bidding,
    quick to hear and do what He says.
Bless God, all you armies of angels,
    alert to respond to whatever He wills.
Bless God, all creatures, wherever you are—
    everything and everyone made by God.
 
And you, O my soul, bless God!"(103)







 
 
 

Saturday, July 15, 2017

"REJOICE!" - 07/15/17 - Psalms 96-102

 
 
 
"Sing to The LORD a new song,
for He has done marvelous things;
His right hand and His Holy arm have worked salvation for Him.

The LORD has made His salvation known and revealed His righteousness to the nations.

He has remembered His love and His faithfulness to the house of Israel;
all the ends of the earth have seen the salvation of our God.

Shout for joy to The LORD,

all the earth,

burst into jubilant song with music;
make music to The LORD
with the harp, with the harp and the sound of singing, with trumpets and the blast of the ram's horn--
 shout for joy before The LORD,

The King.

Let the sea resound, and everything in it,
the world, and all who live in it.
Let the rivers clap their hands,
let the mountains sing together for joy; 
let them sing before The LORD,

for He comes to judge the earth.
He will judge the world in righteousness and the peoples with equity.(98)




 
When it rains, I can hear the rain hitting the tin roof and wonder does His Word seep into my all?
I can hear the birds outside, singing nonstop and wonder does my heart sing also?


Everywhere I look, I can see the grandness of His nature and wonder do my eyes take for granted all He gives?


I can feel the elements of nature, all under His control, and wonder do I Trust in His control of my life? 


I can look back and see the places where He has brought me through and wonder how is my faith for days ahead.


I can watch the hands on the clock ticking by and wonder if I am utilizing each moment for His glory.
If I am living for Him and not self.


I can see the beauty in the faces of those He has placed into my heart and life and wonder if I take them for granted.  Or do I fill my days caught up in the "to do list" of life and not the lives of those about me.

We can read this psalm and wonder, "is my heart near to bursting in my love for Him in such a way I am unable to contain it?" 
 
Do we sing?  Do we dance?  Do we leap for joy?  All because we can not help our "self".  Because His love runs through the all of us? 

We need to remember we are given only one life, one moment, one second, one chance - to live as He desires.  Rejoicing.  To be so full of Him we are near to bursting.
 
Are we?
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Friday, July 14, 2017

"24/7 - 365 - Eternally" - 07/14/17 - Psalms 90-95




Say this: “God, You’re my refuge.

    I trust in you and I’m safe!”

That’s right—He rescues you from hidden traps,
    shields you from deadly hazards.

His huge outstretched arms protect you—

    under them you’re perfectly safe;
    His arms fend off all harm.

Fear nothing—not wild wolves in the night,
    not flying arrows in the day,
Not disease that prowls through the darkness,
    not disaster that erupts at high noon.

Even though others succumb all around,
    drop like flies right and left,
    no harm will even graze you.

You’ll stand untouched, watch it all from a distance,
    watch the wicked turn into corpses.

Yes, because God’s your Refuge,
    the High God your very own home,

Evil can’t get close to you,
    harm can’t get through the door.

He ordered His angels
    to guard you wherever you go.

If you stumble, they’ll catch you;
    their job is to keep you from falling.

You’ll walk unharmed among lions and snakes,
    and kick young lions and serpents from the path.

 “If you’ll hold on to Me for dear life,” says God,
    “I’ll get you out of any trouble.

I’ll give you the best of care
    if you’ll only get to know and trust ME.

Call ME and I’ll answer, be at your side in bad times;
    I’ll rescue you, then throw you a party.

I’ll give you a long life,
    give you a long drink of salvation!”(91:2-16)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Thursday, July 13, 2017

"His Sojourners" - 07/13/17 - Psalms 86-89



 "What You say goes, God, and stays, as permanent as the heavens.
Your truth never goes out of fashion; it's as up-to-date as the earth when the sun comes up.


Your Word and Truth are dependable as ever; that's what You ordered - You set the earth going.
                        
If Your revelation hadn't delighted me so, I would have given up when the hard times came.                            

But I'll never forget the advice You gave me; You saved my life with those wise words.


Save me! I'm all Yours. I look high and low for Your words of Wisdom.
The wicked lie in ambush to destroy me,
but I'm only concerned with Your plans for me.  
                          
I see the limits to everything human, but the horizons can't contain Your commands!                            

Oh, how I love all You've revealed; I reverently ponder it all the day long."(89-97)
 
 
 
His reminder.  His comfort.  His Truth. 
 
Right there - first Words I read this morning. 


He is I AM.

 
 
Comparing myself to how I was in my yesterdays, I have improved greatly.  There are still moments when I fail and fall back into an old habit.  When I allow the whispers coming from the enemy to draw my attention off of our ABBA.

My g'ma Dorothy used to tell me, "it's like a rocking chair.  Even though you rock and rock, you're never getting anywhere".
 
She was referring to "worry". 
 
I have been striving to eradicate it from my life by depending and believing in all - all - He has written to me in our Love Letter from Him - His Word.  I have been striving to lean on The Holy Spirit and draw from His Wisdom, which I receive from digging into His Word.  I continually strive in becoming more intimate with our ABBA, desiring more than just a superficial relationship. 
 
And for the most part, He has helped me overcome the noise of the whispers.
 
There is much on our plates and it seems time just slips on by rather quickly.  My heart is saddened by the news of loved ones who are fighting for, or have lost the fight, for their lives.  There have been raging battles fought against the evil of cancer.  My uncle has been given some very positive news after receiving treatments.  A dear sister of ABBA's family has just been placed on hospice and I fight back the tears when thinking of the steps her family is taking right now.  So many prayers I lift up throughout my days for those who have been in accidents, taken ill.  

It has been bittersweet having our sons become grown men and leave the "nest".  There have been, and most likely will be more of those moments when my heart physically aches from the days which accumulate between all of us being together.  How I delight in Adam being back and living here with our Ashley, Charlie and Ella.   To spend time with them.  Just to hear their voice in person and see their faces on a regular basis. 

Nichalas and Amber have been on their hike of the Pacific Crest Trail since the Monday after Easter.  I have asked Nichalas if he could see The Hand of God with them in certain situations they have gotten caught in and he replied, "Mom, we shouldn't have made it through.  He is here". 
 
I find keeping busy and focusing on our ABBA helps keep the worry away.  ABBA reassures me everything will work out.  It always does. And yes.  I am also trying to squelch the imagination of "what could happen"  during the journey each of our loved ones' steps are taking them on. 

One of my greatest joys has become just sitting and looking, watching our kids. 
His beauty within and outside of them, continually takes my breath away. 

"Marvelous are His works". 
 
If we allowed ourselves, it could be very easy to allow the things of this world overtake our counting of the many blessings our ABBA rains down upon us in all of our steps. 
 
And again, as He reassures us during the attack of satan's arrows, the whispers trying to get into our head, we are but sojourners here on this earth.  Picking up and journeying through the dangers and potholes of this world, towards our place at "Home" in which our Christ has went and prepared for us. 

He continually reassures us the all of our ABBA is as permanent as the heavens. 
In Him, He is as the air we breathe, surrounding us and within.  No matter where we journey.   
 
Every moment, He knows  we need to "hear" He is in complete control. 
 
"What You say goes, God, and stays, as permanent as the heavens.
Your truth never goes out of fashion; it's as up-to-date as the earth when the sun comes up.



Your Word and Truth are dependable as ever; that's what You ordered - You set the earth going.
                        
If Your revelation hadn't delighted me so, I would have given up when the hard times came.                            

But I'll never forget the advice You gave me; You saved my life with those wise words.


Save me! I'm all Yours. I look high and low for Your words of Wisdom.
The wicked lie in ambush to destroy me,
but I'm only concerned with Your plans for me.  
                          
I see the limits to everything human, but the horizons can't contain Your commands!                            

Oh, how I love all You've revealed; I reverently ponder it all the day long."
 
 







Wednesday, July 12, 2017

"He Is Our Security" - 07/12/17 - Psalm 80-85












"And how blessed all those in whom You live,
    whose lives become roads You travel;
They wind through lonesome valleys, come upon brooks,
    discover cool springs and pools brimming with rain!
God-traveled, these roads curve up the mountain, and
    at the last turn—Zion! God in full view!"  (84:5-7)



 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 


 I love "whose lives become roads You travel". 

Knowing because of our choice to walk with our ABBA, no longer do we walk alone.  Not that we ever did, it is just now we recognize Him. 

I hate surprises.  The suspense of not knowing.  When I go to a movie, I like to know the ending beforehand.  Otherwise, the suspense ruins it for me. 

How He has taken that from us who are His......becoming our security, our leader, our road map.  No longer are we wandering down the road of life - lost.  Exposed to the elements, the dangers - hidden and seen.  He is our protector.  Our shield. 

He has told us the "ending" of our journey  - it is with Him - eternally.  No longer do we wander, we can walk with "Godfidence".   Knowing each step we take is a step taken with and "In" Him.  Even when we take a wrong turn, because we have let go of His Hand, taking our focus off of Him and decided to take our own lead, He is still there.  Sometimes gently, sometimes with a push or pull, setting us back on the right path. 

He has taken the suspense of "not knowing" from our journey.  No longer should the "surprises" which pop up, frighten us or cause doubt.  Much of the time, they need to delight us, because we are focusing on Him, no longer on the fear of the unknown.  We need to be seeing our journey through His eyes and celebrating life "In" Him.  Trusting and resting "In" Him.

Knowing - all things are for His glory - sharing "our journey" with Him. 
Headed towards "the last turn—Zion! God in full view!"  
 
 
 
 
 
 

Tuesday, July 11, 2017

"Hope" - 07/11/17 - Psalms 78-79



"For He established a testimony in Jacob
And appointed a law in Israel,


Which He commanded our fathers
That they should teach them to their children,


 That the generation to come might know, even the children yet to be born,
That they may arise and tell them to their children,

That they should put their confidence in God
And not forget the works of God,
But keep His commandments"(78:5-7)


Our Hope for tomorrows. No matter if the children in our lives are of our own blood or not, through our ABBA we are of His Blood.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Monday, July 10, 2017

"His Love Flows From Others" - 07/10/17 - Psalms 74-77





"We give thanks to You, O God, we give thanks, For Your name is near"(75:1)

I have never loved in the way I love our Adam and Ashley, Nichalas and Amber. Charlie and Ella and all the other "kids" He has placed in my heart.

I never knew what it meant to watch part of your heart live outside of your body - until them.
I never knew what it meant to be rich.  to be overwhelmed.  to be full.  until them.

It was and is through them I know how much our ABBA loves each one of us.  The love I have for them is just an inkling of how He feels about us.  About how much He sacrificed - for us.

It is because of them I know the desire to draw near.  To hold their name near and dear to my heart.  To have my heart swell near to bursting upon hearing their voice, seeing their face, just being - with them.

For the past 32 years I have given thanks to my ABBA for the honor, the pleasure, the gift of  celebrating being a mom and in the past year and a half, grandma.  

How I have given thanks. 

These parts of my heart are the best of me.  And they are His.

"We give thanks to You, O God, we give thanks, For Your name is near"







Sunday, July 09, 2017

"Our Refuge" - 07/09/17 - Psalms 70-73




"Nevertheless I am continually with You; You have taken hold of my right hand.
With Your counsel You will guide me, And afterward receive me to glory.

Whom have I in heaven but You?
And besides You, I desire nothing on earth. 

My flesh and my heart may fail,
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

For, behold, those who are far from You will perish; You have destroyed all those who are unfaithful to You.

But as for me, the nearness of God is my good;
I have made The Lord GOD my refuge,
That I may tell of all Your works."(73:23-28)

Amen.
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Saturday, July 08, 2017

"Only Then" - 07/08/17 - Psalms 66-69



"I love You more than I can say.
Because I'm madly in love with You,
They blame me for everything they dislike about You. (69:6)


 Words.  How inadequate are mine in trying to express to our ABBA my love for Him. 
Actions.  How often they fail to convey what is in my heart for Him.
Thoughts.  How often they slip away from their focus on Him and onto myself.

Loved.  By Him.  More than we can ever love Him back. 
Covered.  By Him.  Unconditionally He covers our repentive heart.
Lead.  His.  To be less of "me" and more of Him.
Held.  Forever.  Eternally. 
In the palm of His Hand.

For the all of "me".
To be at this place. 
To be at this point. 
To be so madly in love with ABBA. 
For Him to be our only Idol. 

For Him to be our ALL.

To be all we worship. Adore. Desire.


It is only then, are we able to see the Spiritual warfare raging all about us. 
It is only then, are we able to stand firm and not take attacks personal. 

To see beyond the persons, their actions, and see their souls. 
Crying out for Him.  And pray.  For them. 

Only then, are we able to Love as He loves.

Friday, July 07, 2017

"Embrace Him With All That You Are" - 07/07/17 - Psalms 58-65




God - You're my God!
I can't get enough of You!

I've worked up such hunger and thirst for God, traveling across dry and weary deserts.   So here I am in the place of worship, eyes open, drinking in Your strength and glory.

In Your generous Love I am really living at last!

My lips brim praises like fountains.   I bless You every time I take a breath;
My arms wave like banners of praise to You.  
I eat my fill of prime rib and gravy; I smack my lips.

It's time to shout praises!  

If I'm sleepless at midnight, I spend the hours in grateful reflection. 

Because You've always stood up for me, I'm free to run and play. 
I hold on to You for dear life, and You hold me steady as a post." (63:1-8)





"It was 20 years ago that I enjoyed the privilege of portraying Jesus in the film The Gospel of Matthew.  The experience was life-changing as I came to understand The Lord in ways I'd never imagined.  I discovered His joy, His heartbreak, and the fire of His passion. 

I also discovered how remarkably alone Jesus was when He walked the earth.


After all, who could possibly understand a man whose thoughts and ways were so astoundingly removed from those of any other person?  Even His closest companions never "got it" until after He'd ascended to His Father. 

How alone does that leave a man - especially that Golgotha day? 


When we filmed the crucifixion scenes of Matthew, I arrived on the set after a three-hour make-up job that was so authentic none of the film crew could bear to look at me.  I recall thinking of that scripture, "He was....like one from whom men hid their face" (Isa. 53:3), and realizing it was very real.


Then the filming began and the brutality was remarkable.  We were just "faking it," and the awfulness was indescribable.  I remember hanging there and seeing the faces all around me, just staring.  A little girl from the local village where we were filming just cried and cried.  They all would have loved to help me somehow.  But it was something I had to go through alone.


I thought of Jesus looking out and seeing His mother, John, and others.  As much as they loved Him, there was no way they could understand His motivations that day. 

As much as they'd have loved to somehow help Him, it was something He had to do - alone.


Then came the moment of alone beyond alone. 

"My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?" (Matt. 27:46). 

And you and I could be born again.


Today is a day to shed all our wanting and live as The Lord desires:  thankful.  We have the privilege of understanding Him as those who walked by His side never could, and our response can be nothing other than to fall on our faces in profound gratitude.  Glory to Jesus!!!!!" - Bruce Marchiano








Thursday, July 06, 2017

"Heart Shattered Lives" - 07/06/17 - Psalms 51-57




"Going through the motions doesn’t please You,
    a flawless performance is nothing to You.
I learned God-worship
    when my pride was shattered.
Heart-shattered lives ready for love
    don’t for a moment escape God’s notice." (Psalm 51:16-17)






She stood at one of the three sinks in the public bathroom.  The one in the corner.  Her stuff was piled on the floor beside her, level with the counter top.  In one hand were the remains of a dirty rag and the other held a small sample bottle of hand sanitizer.  Over and over she continued to wipe down the counter.  Wringing the remnant of the rag under the full force of the water.  When the bottle of "sanitizer" was empty, she held it under the water, until it was filled up.  At times, she would rest her weary head in her hands as she viewed what she was doing as a never ending job. 
Nichalas once said, "Chicago is a place where you can never be alone, but is one of the loneliest cities in the world". 
She stood there with women surrounding her, the line snaked around and out the door, yet she was in her own world.  Talking to herself, mumbling words I could only pick up here and there.  The anxiousness and anxiety poured out of her eyes like the water pouring out of the faucet. 

Her actions brought to mind these verses.  Her “flawless performance” in cleaning the sink, was only smearing the unseen germs around on the counter top.  Over and over she was going through the motions, all the while using improper tools.  And when she was done, she let go a breath of relief.  Her pride in her work was momentary for in her mind, she still saw the filth and would begin the futile process over again. 

Just as God sees us when we are living outside of Christ, trying to cleanse sin in our hearts by doing things "our" way.  There is only one way to our ABBA and that is our Savior.  Jesus Christ. 

The all of our life - it has to be all about Him.  
 
It has to be from a changed heart, not just lip service.  Just as sitting in a garage doesn't make us a car, neither does just going through the motions bring us into an intimacy with Him.
 
Looking at my life I see many “heart-shattered” moments as He has/is growing me.  Cleansing my heart with The Blood of our Savior.  Shattered from the life of "self", of just going through the motions, as my relationship with Him has moved from superficial to intimate.

Although those "heart-shattered" moments cause us great pain, it is only then we are ready for Love.

The Love of our Savior.  Jesus Christ.