this son with whom his life is so bound up,
the moment he realizes the boy is gone, he'll die on the spot".(44:30)
Whenever I have read this account of the reunion of Joseph and his brothers, I always wondered, "why all the tests". It finally dawned on me one day, the testing was to bring about trust. to bring about forgiveness. to bring about faith.
Joseph's brothers had never fessed up to their act in getting rid of him and believed what they had done was coming back to haunt them. But Joseph had total faith in his ABBA, knowing all the trials he had went through were so he could be used by God. He had totally forgiven his brothers. Now they needed to forgive themselves.
Jacob's blatant favoritism brought about the treatment and feelings Joseph's brothers held towards him. And when Joseph was gone, his favoritism went to his youngest son, Benjamin.
The giving up of Benjamin.
It saved the whole family from a sure death during the famine.
How often do we look at the trials and tribulations in life and wonder why.
ABBA doesn't allow the trials because He hates. His Love for us is so great, He wants only the best for us.
And always the best for us is to love Him first and most. There are times when the best for us isn't always what we believe it to be, because we are unable to see the whole paradigm. This is where trust comes in. To let go and trust ABBA in all He has planned for us. Forgiving ourselves and others for the times we sin or are sinned against. To let go and let Him as we step out in faith, without any baggage pulling us down.
Knowing one day we will have it all. Not here on earth, but with Him. Eternity.