During study last night we were discussing temptations. What ones do we find ourselves fighting the most and I instantly thought about my 'constants'. Emotionally eating is at the top of my list, but so are others.
These are the times in which I find myself "flapping" my mouth. Venting, gossiping, tearing down, whining, complaining, wallowing in self-pity. There are times when my body language is speaking the same language just as loudly as the words flowing from my mouth.
I walk away from these times and guilt sets in. I know I have not left with words that will "save lives". I have been walking on the "tear down" path.
We as humans, for some reason, find it easier to believe the bad over the good. Studies show it takes a billion, zillion good comments to cancel out one bad comment from our head. And even then doubt still sneaks in and we will often pick up that one bad and start the cycle of "tear down" all over - again.
Perhaps this is why it is so hard to take The Word of Jesus for what it is.
A question from a few years back continues to go through my mind.
I have realized, it isn't I don't feel or believe I have everything I need to live my best life for God - it is that I too many times choose not to utilize what He has given me. Too many times I choose not to take the escape He promises me for every single temptation which will come my way.
This is where satan loves to jump into the "tear down" party and have us believe we haven't a chance. This is where satan and self join together to sing the chorus of "you are a loser". This is where the burden of shame will keep us down.
But, THIS is when The Holy Spirit really starts to show off His Power.
We could continue to stay covered up in shame, but His Word tells us that we are covered instead in His Grace and Mercy. His Word tells us we are His Beloved. Fearfully and Wonderfully made. His Word tells us He loved us so much, He gave His only beloved Son to die - for each one of us. for all of our sins.
So, we can choose to stand up again - in Him. Letting the blanket of shame fall to the ground, rinsing our mouth out, consuming His Words, and focusing on our ABBA and His Truth.
I pray I am, more often than not, leaving behind words to give others hope and Truth after they have chosen to serve "self" and not Him. To let them know they don't have to live in shame apart from ABBA, by sharing His Words with them.
His Word promises to supply us with, "something that will save my life - in fact, yours and everyone you care for."