Peace to all men and women on earth who please him."(Luke 2:14)
Since deciding to take the "high road", I have felt the true joy and peace that can only come from God. What a blessing to experience this instead of the heaviness, dark, sick feeling that comes with bitterness, anger, and revenge. Which always comes when I decide to take "my road".
Even with all the good intentions, intimacy I feel with God after worship time, how quickly I can slip. Yesterday, after writing and praying in thanksgiving for Curt, even right up to walking out to the truck, I changed course. He offended me and I became defensive. Very defensive.
So much for taking the "high road".
So much for visualizing about being on the mountain, winding my way to the top. There I was going off into the brush, using my tongue as my machete to knock down anything in my path. Including my husband. Why do I do that? It isn't easy to walk His way all the time, but it is far easier than trying to get through all the obstacles of the "self" road. The destructive obstacles.
How thankful I am that God takes time to knock me up side the head and kick me in the arse - putting me back in the direction of the "high road". It's still my choice, but He isn't about to let me go without a fight on His part - or to walk alone. He is always with me. We both know it's all about self/satan wanting to be god instead of Him. And there are times, often times, that I have to live through the consequences.
Thankfully, He is at the center of Curt and me. Harsh words turned into prayers with each other. Turned into gentle words of love, lifting each other up and apologies. Only because of Him. Through Him.
I think about how my heart has been singing since loving those who offend me to Christ, instead of lashing out in defense. How He is changing my heart to pray for others outside of Him, my eyes to see that they are lost souls, opening my ears, mind, heart to love as He does. Not taking everything personal (as often) and seeing this for what it is - spiritual warfare.
I feel, see, know that pleasing Him brings peace.
It's that "mountain top" experience that comes with taking the high road........
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