every day of my life. I'm back home in the house of God
for the rest of my life."(Psalm 23:6)
When I was seventeen, I moved from a town of maybe 100 people to Chicago. The very naive farm girl was in the middle of the big city - very big city. A few months ago, when I was there visiting Nichalas and Amber, we went downtown and walked through the old building I used to work in. It amazed me after 33 years much of it was the same. I worked for a freelance logo designer. It was a very fun job with different hours. "Back then" we would take different pictures in stores for ideas, presentations to the clients were done throughout the regular working hours and at night we would do the layouts, drawing, etc. There wasn't photo shop back then - everything was pretty much from scratch and by hand. I really enjoyed the work and the hours didn't bother me.
At the time, I lived in a suburb and would take the train home. Many, many times to save money, I would walk across downtown to catch the last train home - usually after midnight. To save time - I would cut through alleys, side streets, etc. I was so naive - it didn't occur to me the dangers I was walking though. Back then, I didn't even recognize a gay couple. I didn't know what it meant when they told me the elevator man was "an old queen", just nodded my head like I did.
Today - I kinda miss looking at the world through those innocent eyes.
Many, many times over the years when I think about how many, many, many times I walked through "dangerous places" - it is without a doubt I know His hedge of protection was about me. It still is. I often say that my guardian angels probably have gray hair or no hair from all the stress I put them through!
When I think about the darkness of the alley's I cut through, I can see that His light was behind me. In my minds eye, I can actually see His bright light following me through my memories. I once heard that there is no such thing as darkness, only the void of light. His light was always there.
Is always here.
No matter how dark I feel it is - His light is there - somewhere - I just need to "focus" on it.
My heart is overwhelmed knowing that "He always chased after me." That I came to my senses and let Him capture me.
That " I'm back home in the house of God for the rest of my life."