set a watch at the door of my lips. (psalm 141:3)
Immediately when I first read this, I thought that I was to keep my mouth shut. When rereading it though, I realized posting a guard is much different than what I had pictured. He wants me to talk - just talk as He talks - not how I would.
There are many times that I can actually feel the Holy Spirit nudging me to "shut up".....and more and more I follow suit. There are many times when I get a case of "flappy mouth" and He will zing me with a scripture. And more and more I am actually stepping back and shutting up. Don't get me wrong, I still have miles to go on improvement. And there are times when I fall back into the old habits. Why is it that bad talking about someone gives you a sense of power? Pride? The more He convicts me, the feelings of shame override any power or pride.
I recognize that the main reason my words are different is due to His Word. It wasn't until I started to be In His Word every single day that my mouth started lining up with my heart. The more sold out I am for Him, the more my "talk matches my walk". So many persons are turned off by the "Christians" who say they are followers of Christ, but when they get a case of "flappy mouth" - the real truth comes out. I pray that I lead more to Christ than not. I pray that the words that come out are pleasing to the guard. I have read this verse as a prayer request. I know that He knows my heart better than I do, that He knows I desire to please Him, that I so love Him. I know because of that - He has provided the guard to set watch. Knowing that once words are spoken they can not be brought back, at times makes me feel physically sick as I recall some of the words I have spoken. How very thankful I am that He is bigger than any words I have misspoken. That doesn't give me free rein to speak as I want, but it does give me the desire to please Him out of love.
So I am thankful that I am learning. That my talk is more and more matching my walk with Him.
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