There it is - on the silver platter again.
But then we look at Doubt sitting there, so tempting, so in your face - and you pick it up. You tuck it down deep within that inside pocket of your heart. Thinking it's such a little thing to carry with you, it won't matter.
Funny thing about Doubt though.
We never leave it alone. It sits there, hidden, within that pocket in our heart and we are consumed with dressing it up. We put on the blankets of fear, anger, insecurity - and we begin to waver in our resolve that we will win "in" God, the battles. Second guessing about what, how, when, and we find ourselves either rushing ahead not following His lead, or stuck in the muck of anxiety and panic. How satan then uses those emotions to keep us from being effective warriors.
It is then I begin to pray that God will open my eyes to His Truth.
And He has.
I see we are in a spiritual warfare and there are some things which can not be explained - things others may doubt He can do or what we experience. Some persons when encountering evil feel the hair go up on the back of their neck. Others may get goose pimples, feel an urgency to leave, or just sense that something dark is about them. He has given me the ability to actually see a dark, shadowy presence. The last battle I encountered, Curt was with me. We went into the situation without any fear or nervousness. He had led us to this place and we were in His Hands. I could see Him and His light surrounding us and hear Him say, "He had our backs". There wasn't a need for us to use our words to defend ourselves. His Word kept running through our hearts and minds, leading us in how to battle. Our words didn't matter - He was fighting for us. .
As His Warrior, I am standing strong in His promise - "Deby - In a few minutes you’re going to do battle with your enemies. Don’t waver in resolve. Don’t fear. Don’t hesitate. Don’t panic. ABBA, your ABBA, is right there with you, fighting with you against your enemies, fighting to win.”