"God, your God, is testing you to find out if you totally love Him with everything you have in you.
Riding towards Home!
Holding on to Him for dear life!
It is our outlook on this ride which will determine our attitude.
If we have trust and faith in Him - we are in for an exciting adventure.
If our trust and faith is in ourselves, others, or some thing - well - fear is destined to be our guide.
In living we will not be eagerly looking ahead, trying to see around the next bend in excitement. Instead we will be clinging to the rocks, trying to keep the raft from going forward. Wet, cold, shaking, a terrified wreck. Not only holding onto the rocks, but also trying to keep everything inside the raft. Completely oblivious that He is in the raft, due to being focused to what is going on around us. We will be riding through life not focused on Him.
Exhausted and miserable comes to mind when picturing this.
It is only in allowing Him to take the lead we are able to see excitement, joy, freedom.
Even while in the middle of hidden boulders, we will be at peace knowing He is in control of our raft.
And all we have to do is hold on!
That is the best part.
The knowing without a doubt.
He is holding onto us during this ride so tightly we can not be wrenched from His grasp.
Unless we pry off His fingers and jump.
And then, He doesn't ride on by leaving us behind in His wake. He is keeping the raft there, waiting for us to figure out we begin drowning the second we begin living on our own. He is there waiting for us to come to our senses, see the raft and Him, reaching out to pull us back in the instant our hand is stretched out to Him. And then, we continue the ride. Together.
Unfortunately, each one of us have and will, jump out numerous times.
Doesn't matter the water - rough or peaceful - for some reason, we begin to believe "self" can do better outside the raft.
Through Scripture He tells us over and over, "That's where we are right now. So cut away the thick calluses from your heart and stop being so willfully hardheaded - get back into the raft." Come on! We have a ride to enjoy."
It has taken too much time, but finally I have ridden with Him to the place where I am thankful for the trials and tribulations of this ride. It is at the end of each hurdle I am able to see I am walking closer "in" Him. He has transformed my heart to see His glory in all. He has taken my hand and led me away from the "self pity" party I was attending.
I see now all tests are much like the boulders we encounter on our ride. He is able to maneuver around them with such skill and then, they are behind us. He is in total control of our raft in this journey called life.
Through Christ we draw such strength knowing He was tested in ways we will never be and being so totally in love with God - He passed. He didn't take things personal - everything was about God and our relationship with God. He wasn't about seeking revenge, seeking His own way, He was about Love - no matter what.
How His heart broke, and breaks, for the sorrows our God experiences because of our brokenness. Because of the times we have/are jumping out of the raft.
"God, my God, who rescued me from the rapids, who redeemed me from a world of slavery and put me in our raft on which God, my God, has commanded me to ride. Purge the evil from my company." (13:5)
My prayers are for Him to continue purging the evil from us and we are totally loving Him with everything within. I pray all will want only to hold on to Him for dear life, riding towards Home.