Saturday, January 30, 2016

"God Saw" - 01/30/16 - Exodus 1-3

"God saw that he had stopped to look."(3:4)               

Notice "God saw that he had stopped to look".  God didn't go over and turn his head - making him look.  He didn't put the bush right in his path to stop him.  He didn't go over and yank him to the bush.  He was there.  He was ready.  He  watched.  He waited.  He "saw that he had stopped to look". 
Ever wonder how often you walk right by "the burning bush" God has placed for you?  How you become so immune to God, taking Him for granted, that you don't see, hear, feel Him?  How we become so wrapped up in self, the things of this world, we don't see the gifts He is handing out to us?  Or to be in such denial He is "I AM" ,  we don't hear or accept His accountability, His discipline?

Used to be I would be so wrapped up in "self",  in such a "pity party" or so consumed with anger, bitterness, thoughts of revenge - I missed His numerous blessings - in all situations.  Too numerous to count and repeatedly,  I missed them.  Didn't acknowledge them.  Much less enjoy them.  

 I didn't see the "silver lining in the clouds". 

Or His Hand at work when I thought all was out of control or against me.

Until now. 

It began to happen when I made it a priority to be in His Word each and every day.  To do more than skim the verses, as an act of habit or a check mark on the list, but to consume His Words and chew on them.  To write about The Words He has spoken through to me.  And during this new way of life - He has come in and transformed my heart, my mind, my vision - me.

I love the account of forgiveness here with Moses for killing the Egyptian.  It didn't come from his own people - his family - or from the Pharaoh.  So he ran.  He ran into the wilderness and there God gave him a new family and a new life.  He gave Him the gift of forgiveness at the burning bush.  He allowed Moses to stand on His Holy Ground.  In order to do so, Moses had to remove his sandals.  To accept God's terms to be able to move closer and stand before Him. 

Up to this point, I wonder if Moses ever thought about if God forgave him?  If the sin he had committed, was it too big for God to forgive.   Did he become so consumed with his new life that he "forgot" or buried it deep, pretending all was okay? 
How often have I done that?  In the past it was the only way I knew how "to survive" - it was my "self preservation".  And then He showed me through His Word, His family, His love - what I was doing wasn't burying - or surviving.  In actuality, I was only hiding me - the "me" whom He created me to be. 
So often I was like Moses, using some excuse or believing the lies,  that I couldn't be a vessel for Him because of my flaws.  I had not confessed them, repented from them, forgave myself of them.  In doing so, I still was wearing my sandals of sin.   Putting myself before God.  Believing  His gift of forgiveness through Christ wasn't enough.  Even after confessing and repenting - if I couldn't forgive me - then how could He. 

I love how God took the excuse Moses gave about his lack of elegant speech and told him like it was.  There isn't anything bigger than God!  There isn't anything that He can not overcome and use for His glory. 

Including my sins. 
One of those being I hadn't forgiven me.  Until His Word, His Godly Wisdom,  transformed my heart so now I am beginning to see and love "me" as He does.   Just as He did with Moses.  Removing the strongholds.  The lies.

"He who gets wisdom loves his own soul; He who keeps understanding will find good." 
(Proverbs 19:8)
I had to do as Moses -  I had to remove the sandals of sin to accept and believe in the gift of Him.

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