A few years ago, our Bible Study group did a study, "A Wardrobe from The King - putting on The Armor of God". This has to be one of the best studies I have done. At the time of the study, He knew I needed it and it has went into my heart and stuck.
Nothing is by chance.
He has total control in all things.
He knew my heart was at the place where I would be receptive and transform to equipping myself with His Armor each and every day. Through the trials and tribulations I had been asking Him to remove the sin from my heart.
Asking? No begging.
Falling head over heels in love with my ABBA has brought me to the place where I so want and desire to be more like Him. By "cutting away the calluses from my heart", I am finally able to see and rejoice in Him in all things. He is everywhere!
My calluses were the result of picking up doubt and letting it escalate into sins. Sin had become a part of my heart and was affecting my vision. Being so willfully hardheaded in believing the lies of the world and not having Trust in His Truth was affecting every single aspect of my life - including my relationship with Him.
Instead of putting on His Armor, I was putting on my self-designed original.
So much like the fashion knockoffs you can purchase through the black market. They may look much like the original, but they aren't as well made, lesser quality products, and flaws galore when you really check it out.
I had fooled myself into thinking my design was better equipped for the spiritual battles raging about me.
I had convinced myself I needed to be in control and handle the situations when they came up.
Until I finally gave over my "self", I was so concentrated on keeping up my design, I was missing Him all around me. Everything about me was focused on getting revenge or defense. I wasn't living a good life. My life was miserable. The sick, ugh feeling, never left the pit of my stomach. Fear, bitterness - were only a few of my constant companions.
Finally, I heard Him loud and clear and now put on His Designer Original each and every day.
Love Him, serve Him, with everything I have in me. Follow the road He "sets" out for me.
Finally - put on "His" armor. Let Him take care of the fight.
"Live a good life".