'But if her husband intervenes when he hears of it, he cancels the vow or rash promise that binds her. And God will release her." (30:8)
Through the years of walking with Him, how He has and is transforming my heart, my mind, my all. Thankfully, He encourages me in seeing I am learning. Still occurring, but not as frequently, do I hear myself speaking before thinking.
Yes, there are still moments I need a zipper on my mouth.
During those moments when an enthusiastic "yes" will pop out before I have thought things through, what is entailed, and most times - my heart really isn't in it. I walk away knowing I have said "yes" for the wrong reasons.
Be it excitement, guilt, shame, my own glory.
He is continually teaching me throughout the years it is best to be quiet and just love, listen and serve. Those times I don't say "yes", is a time someone else does, because God wants them in that place. He is teaching me it is okay to not do, because He has something coming up in which He needs me to do. Something in my future I hadn't planned to be in my journey.
It talks in scripture your word is to be taken for what it is - a yes, is yes. a no, is no.
So many times I have given a "yes", and broken my word. Or even in the saying of "no". How often have I said "no" to sin in my life and at the end of the day looking back, see my "no" became a "yes".
My "Husband" is my Savior.
He is my Christ.
"He intervenes when He hears of it, He cancels the vow or rash promise that binds me. And God will release me."
This isn't a ticket for a ride to do as I please.
I have entered into a covenant with Him and each time I sin - I am breaking my vow. Much like the wedding vows I took with Curt. There will be consequences of my words. Some will seem almost unbearable, but "in" Him - "we" get through it, covered in His Grace and Mercy.
The more in love with Him I fall, the more I don't want Him to have to cancel my vow or rash promises. Each time He has to, it breaks His heart.
I want to please Him.
To give Him joy.
I am rest assured.
There is no question.
For although my Husband, my Christ, has gotten the short end of the stick.
Still - He loves me.
My Christ - my Husband - He keeps His vows.